It has been over a year since I created and wrote my first post on Worship Imag. It has been a crazy year for me filled with a lot of ups and downs. To give you a little history, I worked at Eagle Brook Church in Minnesota for 5 years, and a month ago that came to an end. But the road that lead me to that decision was long, in fact it took me over a year of learning and searching before the time came for me to move on.
One of the main reason I felt that it was time for me to move on was because I needed a new challenge. The repetition of the job was getting difficult, I was starting to get set in my ways, not accepting of new ideas, and thinking I always had the right answers. I was becoming down right arrogant at times, especially towards my co-workers. I was getting board, which was difficult for me. I loved the church I worked for, the people I worked with, and doing production has always been fun for me. But I started to realize that if I wasn’t in growing in what I knew, I was only growing in what I thought I knew. This ultimately lead me on a year journey.
The biggest thing I learned over the last year was humility. I have far from mastered it, but I began to understand more of what I knew, what I didn’t know, and how low on the totem pole of “professionals” I really am. I was applying for jobs and was getting rejection letter after rejection letter without even an interview! So much success in the church world was turning into defeat in the rest of the world.
A couple of good friends that knew I was looking for something new kept encouraging me and helped me keep my confidence going, which was important in the process for me. But all the rejection, and defeat in finding something new was what really gave me perspective. As a technical director I love pressing buttons and cutting a show. I knew my Ross Synergy 2 inside and out, but… there are still many people out there that know that switcher better than I do, or use it differently than I do. The productions that I use it on is just one of many different types of productions you can do. I realized that it is easy to master a production when you do it over and over again, it is more difficult to be good when walking into a new production. That is where I began to see the gap grow. The bottom line, I wasn’t as good as I thought I was, I was humbled. This happened time and time again.
This last year has taught me that I need to constantly be learning and challenging myself in every area of my life, especially professionally. As a director you have to find things to challenge and fuel your creativity. You have to push yourself to learn new things and be open to feedback. If this is your career, and this is the path you want to go down, get out of church once in awhile and do some outside productions.
So how did I finally find my “out?” It all came down to a good friend recommending me for a job and someone taking a chance, it was a huge break for me. This industry is all about who you know, about people trusting and recommending you. It has little to do with your resume`. It has everything to do with your drive. Your current productions and your future in this industry is only determined by your drive. I haven’t even began to express what I have learned and how humbled I have been in this journey. But it has been one of the greatest years of my life.
Note: I just finished a book called “Humilitas” By John Dickson. I highly recommend it, it brought a lot of clarity to what I learned the last year.